There is this beingness that is absolutely free and non-anything, how to describe this?, this is the absolute freedom from any sort of care, remorse, sadness, happiness, you name it. It is the absolute य़ां YAM How can I possibly clarify this, for my own edification, if not for anyone else's? It is a state of utter detachment, it is that which always is there, always is here only when I'm cognizant of it, breathing deeply and purposely helps, Its there at the breath, It corrects things that are wrong, if it's wrong, it gets corrected, i.e., - if it's not wrong it doesn't, what's appropriate, when, some things take more digesting than others, चैतन्यमत्म Caitanyamatma, (Shiva Sutras), Awareness which has absolute freedom of all knowledge and activity is the Self, or nature of Reality

The ability to change my 'reality' seems obvious, the how maybe not so obvious, idea that the body is the result, the mind is the architect, and spirit is the agent. Mind shapes the perceptions via understanding, where does understanding originate? Right here, right now, I can inject, or withdraw my identity into/out of anything, anytime, disciplne the mind to the degree that you control what you are feeling or thinking at any particular moment, when what you are doing or thinking actually feels divine, then you're on to something!, if it doesn't feel good, then just forgetting it may be the answer, all good things work together to serve the Self, God, Te OM, Shiva, etc,

I AM ॐ - all else is vain imagining, projections, snake-in-the-rope stuff, smoke and mirrors, why bother with it? Who can do this? Is this true? it gives me something to aim for, to focus on, the rest of it unfolds naturally from this seed. चितं मन्त्रः cittam mantraḥ, the mind is mantra - ॐ is the root cause of all mantras

Concentrated effort can provoke capabilities, concentrate effort on pushing through the illusion, all ot it, home in on Truth; - on every level, in every chakra, at all times, be aware of the sense of Truth, it is always there, it is its nature,

Come into harmony with your deepest wishes, to have no identity with this body or life, to allow them to manifest perfectly as they wish, to not interfere, not from a place of identity but a place from pure creativity, yo are creating this, the underlying energy you are creating with? What is it, where is it coming from? I am everything, sometimes militancy just happens, impulse is there

Energy centers, where energy is stored and manifests from, if people have a recurring energy to do some particular thing, then there is a corresponding center, that's why Tai-Chi, Chi-Gong, are so useful, they direct attention to the centers, one thing you have to remember is that love lingers on, after all the sadness has gone, the love is still there,

Compulsive doership, I want to extract this element from my soul because it distorts perception.

     Always fear driven, no doubt about that. Compulsive = Fear.

 

There seem to be many shapes of madness in the world. I wonder if all the madness is removed, what is left? Is fear a form of madness? Any fear at all? What are the senses?

Peaceful and Easy, that's the way to be, how best to rid the mind of all the useless painful chatter? ~ I can pull the energy out of thought into the battery-storage of a chakra, use the breath to do this, let the breath permeate the space where the thoughts are, pull the energy out of the thoughts with the breath, then push it into the Ajña chakra, 1st attention to the breath, then direct it, into the thought space using alternate in right nostril, out left, gather the energy of the thoughts, range as deeply and broadly into them as you can, then use your hands and breath to direct the energy into the chakra, play with it, see what you come up with, everything in this world is designed to bring you to the Truth, don't get hung up on routine, be flexible, especially where circumstances warrant, 

Peaceful and Easy, that's the way to be, how best to rid the mind of all the useless painful chatter? ~ I can pull the energy out of thought into the battery-storage of a chakra, use the breath to do this, let the breath permeate the space where the thoughts are, pull the energy out of the thoughts with the breath, then push it into the Ajña chakra, 1st attention to the breath, then direct it, into the thought space using alternate in right nostril, out left, gather the energy of the thoughts, range as deeply and broadly into them as you can, then use your hands and breath to direct the enery into the chakra, play with it, see what you come up with,